Tonight I was thinking through some frustrations in my spiritual walk and personal life. I realized as I was thinking through it all that it all turned back to trust issues in my Lord. If I would just trust more and chill out and rely on Him more... I wouldn't have these frustrations.

I was at work when I was thinking through these things and then God gave me the perfect visual lesson.

My boss has a  beautiful little girl who is about 5 years old and is full of life. Well, today was her birthday and one of the other staff members at church brought her a toy. It was beautiful doll and it was very intricately strapped into this box with all these little twisty ties and tape and wire (hope you know what I mean). She was so excited as she sat down with her new gift and instantly tried to begin tearing into the box to get to the doll.

It was obvious to all of us that were watching that little Briana was never gonna  get to her doll without her Dad's (Dave's) help. However, everytime Dave offered to help her...she would scream, "No! I wanna do it by myself, DADDY!!!!"

then, the worst possible thing happened....the doll broke b/c she was pulling on it too hard. She instantly went into hysterical tears and instantly (it was almost funny) turned to her dad and said ," YOU BROKE MY DOLL!!!!"

God quickly told me, "you are little Briana. you have incredible gifts and opportunities in front of you but you are trying to open them all by yourself. If you don't let Me help you, you'll mess up or hurt yourself....and then turn around and blame your pain on me."

how true.... anyways... just something to ponder.